I only have 127h more

I fell for the idea of you
and once I said it out loud
I understood that some ideas
need patience and time

which I guess I don't have.

Wearing the laughter at 1:27pm

I have been wearing
the laughter you created
with me for few days

for once and for a surprise
I don't want it to end

I want to feel the laugher burn
my stomach
my face
my heart

1:27 poem is moving

Nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing
is more important
than
the peace in me.

I created it myself.
No human, no art piece nor situation is accountable for that.

First time
it's just me.

127 times

You let me in
and then push me away

I let you close
and then push you away

and if the pattern turns our unreliable
then we will always be
pushing
away

first you, then me

never letting us release
into each other arms.

127 points to the sunrise

There was this tension
that you can feel
and might even see
between the sunrise and the sea
between my thoughts and the things I said out loud

but nobody wanted to spill the secrets

and all I could think was
I can't be the only one
experiencing this.

Bye 2019

Year of losses.

and

Year of learning
to
choose my battles.

Year of grief.

and

Year of finally
completely
almost
completely
healing.

Year of me.

127% adoring you

I'm guarding your back

and standing next to you
when you need support

protecting your steps
ahead.

Don't ask why.
It just seems the right thing
to do.