Gratefulness at 1:27

Everything has changed and yet nothing has changed. Yet still... almost everything has changed. 

Being electrified brought some pain and shivers, brought some hazy memories to lost and confusion to mind. But it also made me electrified for living. Being everything, doing everything and maybe, most possible even too much. 

I'm not even apologising if I have been too much. Too much here, too much everywhere. Too much up and too little down. Too lucky and too on a roll. 

Because I lost a lot. 

And I gained somehow, some freaking how, even more than I lost. 

Photo in Vilnius: LMTA 

By: Modestas Endriuška

127 saving

If this doesn't save me

then I will.

Here or there

or on the go,

possibly on the go,

but I will. 

Kui see mind ei päästa,

siis päästan ma end ise. 

Siin või seal

või mineku pealt,

tõenäoliselt mineku pealt,

aga ma ise. 

Greenhouse 1.27

I am my own
greenhouse
all year long

and powerhouse
and electricity bank

and if it's too much for you,

oh well,

thank you for stopping by.

Ma olen iseenda
kasvuhoone
aastaringselt

ja jõuallikas
ja elektripank

ja kui seda on sinu jaoks liiga palju,

mis seal ikka,

tänan sind läbi astumast.

127 hair-flips

I take the stressful times

with beautiful outcomes 

and blissful afternoons 

when all my thoughts 

are covered with laughter. 

I take everything 

as long as I have 

the best of both worlds. 

Hannah Montana. 

Who knows, knows. 

Okay dokey at 1,27pm

Friendly reminder that sometimes you just have to say "okay dokey" and move on to the next thing. Or hold your own hand, and heart, and peace. Sometimes you just need to turn the other cheek and turn to the person who you are, or who has always been next to you. 

"Okay dokey" to the ones who decide to leave and to the ones who decide to make you the best version of yourself. Wish for the best, for yourself and them - you both need the support. 

And welcome the ones who come to your life, turn it upside down - the best way they can - and still stay. Still stay by your side. Near or far. 

"Okay dokey" to you. 

3 x 127 days, almost

I don't have the same thoughts that I had a year ago. 

And that makes me 

incredibly 

incredibly 

happy. 

And it makes me feel strangely blissful. 

In a weird peace. 

In peace. 

27 signs

I'm not looking for a sign. 

But if I would

this would be it. 

It's the beginning of March and so far 2019 has been the most surprising year ever. And even that is an understatement. Life has changed almost completely in the past 2 months, inside and out. It has not just been a simple 180 -- it has been 180 with an extra kick, extra push, extra fast. 

If this is not a sign 

I don't know what is.