Tuesday, December 31, 2013

No matter how you feel...

Get up. Dress up. Show up. And never give up.
Kõige parem tänaseks on teha nii, et uus aasta saaks võiduka alguse. Seada oma elu korda. Kui elu tundub liiga suur ettevõtmine, siis alustada vähemalt selle korrastamisega pisikestest detailidest. Ja olla tänulik. Imelise aasta lõpetamise puhul. Olenemata, kas tõi see rohkem rõõmu või väljakutseid. Kuid üks on kindel: võida või õpi, kuid kunagi ei kaota. 
Ewert and the Two Dragons concert, Florian's birthday in country house and theatre evening. 

Monday, December 30, 2013

Two days 'til 2014

Soon it's time for the hopeless to start hoping again.  To start your reborn. If reborn is not the quickest  and easiest way at the moment, then at least start taking steps towards it again. To start trusting life. Trusting your thoughts. Trusting your ability to climb. Higher. Farther. Deeper.
To not take "no" for an answer but respect your own inner "no", if you simply feel like your boundaries have been pushed. Also... say yes. Yes to every opportunity that you feel that will make you richer. Richer in many ways. Happier. Wiser. Smarter.
Make a list. Put down on every little thing you want to accomplish now, next year and simply… start doing it. If not the next day - then the exact same moment. Today. Now. 
Create your happiness. And travel. Not only physically. Also mentally. 
Only you know what you want. Trust your guts. 

Wednesday, December 25, 2013


So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More Compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide.

Max Christmas feast with all my family. Breathtaking. Literally. 

Being home and resting your head on your own pillow - feels quite amazing after being so busy not even realising what a beautiful 'thing' this called 'life' is. 

Monday, December 23, 2013

it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Nights are meant for dreaming. Making plans. Maybe doing some of them. Setting goals. 
Days are meant to wander around. Make plans true. And a little bit more. Achieve goals. See everything that night darkness was hiding. And make plans. Make plans for nights. 
Life is meant for living. 

Christmas night with my "sister from another mister," gift exchange and making gingerbreads. 

Lots of sushi and wine and laughter. Perfect christmas night! 

 "La Traviata" in Estonia National Opera house, Vapiano time with Dan, two days of football games and Christmas night with Dan - peanut butter truffles!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

this is my happy place

I have been waiting this for a long time. Finally some time to rest, see my loved ones, have quality time with friends, laugh more, eat more, enjoy even more. 
It feels like everything is the same - yet everything has changed. 
Maybe a bit more mature. Maybe a bit more dedicated. Maybe finally in the right place. 
I am not the only one who has changed. And this time - change is a little wonderful thing. 

Flying back to Tallinn for winter holiday.

Drinks in Old Town, reunions, sushi and gift wrapping. 

Sunday, December 15, 2013


And half of the semester is over. Some of us left. Some of us are still standing strong. And I am smiling through tears, because I have been lucky enough to meet so many amazing people.

Adventures in Odense

Monday, December 9, 2013

No. 2

For the last few days we have been watching a huge amount of Christmas movies. Starting with Home Alone, Elf, Polar Express, The Holiday etc. 
It truly is the most wonderful time of the year - as they sing. And for me it means going home, being with my family and friends and enjoying my precious time in amazing Estonia. Counting days…

Let yourself be alone. Loneliness is not a bad thing. It is healthy and normal. Everyone needs to spend a good portion of their life alone. We learn who we are when we are alone; life is less crowded and more clear when we are alone.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Love the one you hold

And I will be your gold.

People always think that happiness is a faraway thing,” thought Francie, “something complicated and hard to get. Yet, what little things can make it up; a place of shelter when it rains - a cup of strong hot coffee when you’re blue; for a man, a cigarette for contentment; a book to read when you’re alone - just to be with someone you love. Those things make happiness. 
Betty Smith (A Tree Grows In Brooklyn)

Amazing day. Flowers and celebration. Still counting stars. Speechless.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Soon to be home

I'm sitting at the bottom of the mistletoe and waiting for you to come home. 

The christmas spirit is slowly and deeply getting into everybody's hearts.
Quietness in my heart. Clarity in my head. Can't wait to start a new day. Can't wait to go to sleep. Can't wait to visit home. Yet, at the same time, don't want to leave this place ether. 
Don't wish away your days, hoping for better ones ahead. 
Everything just falls into place.
This is what Christmas does to me. 

Monday, December 2, 2013

Gala 2013

One more reminder of how I am blessed to be surrounded by so many beautiful people. 
Here for a semester or two.
Friends for life. 

Getting ready for Gala with my roommate. 

Gala partner and a great evening.

Sisters from Denmark and Estonia. 

Friday, November 29, 2013

Life will throw lessons at us

If you have to fight… punch first and punch hard.

One more lesson about growing up and taking responsibility for your actions have been taught. Wiser than before. Stronger than before. Closer to the truth than before. 
Every situation in life will give you something to think about. We just have to make sure that in the end we will stay in stable ground and learn from the bad things.

Special little friends from Estonia. Yum!

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

No. 1

If someone ever makes you feel less, in any way, you have every right to walk away. You have every right to cut out toxic people in your life. To close the door on people who make you feel bad about who you are or what you stand for. Friends don’t tear down, they build up.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Getting slowly ready for December

In this world, it doesn't matter where you are.
All that matters is where are you going.

Get excited.

Friday evening in Svendborg. 

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Frosty mornings

It's that time of the year. The time to let warmness into your heart. To forgive. To forget. Soon it will all pass by. Time to enjoy the view. The play. The never-ending struggles, how they try to be somebody. Else. It's the time to remind yourself who you are. And what have you accomplished. To be proud of being here. Being sometimes the audience not the player. 
The time to sit back and snack on some popcorn. 
Smile and applause.

Dance-theatre time in Svendborg. 

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Harry Potter

Watch all Harry Potter movies - CHECK! 

Thanks to the wonderful people in Ollerup, I now have finally seen all the movies of Harry Potter. And what can I say. One more thing on my bucket list is crossed out and I had an amazing movie nights with good company and good movies.

Monday, November 18, 2013


Ma tahan murduda, et siis jälle tõusta.
Või kukkuda, et vabalangemist nautida.
Ning oodata ja gravitatsiooniga võidelda.
Sulgeda silmad ja neid mitte avada.
Lubada puhata. Kaua magada.
Tahan ilma arvustamata rääkida.
Olla. Ja kuulata.
Olla. Ja tunda kuulatud.
Olla. Ja vaikust nautida.
Olla. Ja samas rääkida.
Ma tahan murduda, et kõrgemale tõusta.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

No sign of winter

At least not in me. 

I look at the time. The date. The whole calendar. And not because I want to scare myself. Just want to wake myself up. To value the moments and do everything, I promised to do tomorrow, now. To smile more and look around - realise that the journey of happiness is developing faster than I thought. Every weak moment shows being a human. Every standing up shows having courage. Settling with a new situation shows my growth. Starting to walk again shows being fearless. 
I look at the time. And I realise that everything is better than just alright. 

Mexican tequila and one 'roller coaster weekend.' 

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Three words on the tip of my tongue

Not to be spoken nor sung
or whispered to anyone.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

You know it all

but you don't know how to listen yourself.

It's easy to be a victim. Easy to be tired and down. Easy to find excuses why you should start living tomorrow and not already today. It's easy.
But let's admit it - easy is not the way we want it.

Pour yourself a drink and get up, show up. Rest, when you need to. But get right back up again - life waits for no one.

International day and evening. Experiences all around the world. 

Friday, November 1, 2013

Head in the clouds

but my gravity's centred. 

The feeling of falling again. And again. Smirk on my face and heart full of adventures. Is this the love we are all looking for?

Little package full of sunshine from my parents. And a little present from Nepal. 
Meet elephant Ron. 

Thursday, October 31, 2013


The magical moment when you understand that everything in this life is good. 
Where are you standing. Who are you surrounded with. How's the weather. Who loves you. Who you love. What you can do and what you want to do. Your bedsheets are beautiful. They will keep your sweetest dreams. Your quietness is beautiful. It can say so much to those who are willing to discover it. Your tired face is beautiful. It will show your battles. Your lost battles. And your conquers. And all the excited adventures that you will experience. 
You need to open your eyes from time to time. And see things with new eyes. Because overall... everything is good.
You are good. 

Magical home-made Chinese food night with International dance ladies. 

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Do you know the feeling?

The feeling of falling for the same person all over again.

And again.

And again.

Even when you already hold him in your arms.



We will be counting stars.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Groningen 2013

We travel for romance, we travel for architecture, and we travel to be lost.

Be a tourist. Be a traveler. Be a wanderer and a local. 
Get inspired. Get noticed. Get motivated.
Start your own adventure. 

My week in Groningen, Netherlands. 
Full of beautiful architecture, good food, new faces and names, inspiring stories.
Week full of love. 

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Run with the sunshine

Kõik algab sinust endast. Ning kõik seisab sinu ees. 
Iseasi, kas sa näed seda.
Ei. Iseasi, kas sa tõesti vaatad seda. 
Iseenda teha, kas õpid seda vaatama.

Good life.

When you’re young, you always feel that life hasn’t yet begun — that “life” is always scheduled to begin next week, next month, next year, after the holidays — whenever. But then suddenly you’re old and the scheduled life didn’t arrive. You find yourself asking, ‘Well then, exactly what was it I was having — that interlude — the scrambly madness — all that time I had before?
— Douglas Coupland

Enjoying the morning run in the centre of Groningen. 
Enjoying every moment of it. 

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

My great escape


I didn’t know anything really, which is a strangely wonderful position to be in. Everything that lay before me was new and mysterious and exciting in a way you can’t imagine.
— Bill Bryson, Notes from a small island

Friday, October 11, 2013

Südamelöögid nii tugevad. Nii elusad.

This is what you do. If you feel low, you stand tall. You mess up, you move on. You want to try something, try it, and if it was a stupid thing to try, you look it in the eye. There’s no turning back. You apologize if you’re sorry, but know that the nimblest, strongest hands can’t rebuild a bridge out of embers, so cut new wood. Start from scratch. You love with your whole heart. If you’re jealous, talk yourself from the ledge. If you can’t talk yourself down from the ledge, have a good time up there, looking down on the world. If you have to lie to make everything true again, lie like you mean it. If you find yourself in a cage, reach out through the bars for the key, unlock the door, and run away. If running away gets dangerous, run home. If home doesn’t mean what it used to mean, decide what home will be in the future. If your best friend says she doesn’t trust you, hold her jaw in your hand until it hurts, and make her face you. Thats all it takes. If you think you love a guy, see how his hand looks in yours, thats all it takes. If you get exiled into a new land, then go discover it. And if you feel like you’re drowning, go swimming.
— Hobson Brown

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Let's freeze the time...

I want to enjoy my happiness. 
And the people around me. 
And the people away from me.
And the moments that I had yesterday.
And today. 
And moments that I will have tomorrow.
Let's make it worth living.
And let's make life more happier.

Sweet mid-term celebration with my team. 
Evening full of laughter and good company.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Be prepared for rain

Juhus on elus väga tähtis - tuleb osata juhust armastada ja sellest rõõmu tunda. 

Pole juhus, et ma olen siin.
Küll aga juhus tõi mu teele need inimesed. Armsad inimesed. Armsad inimesed ümbritsevad mind nii kodus kui ka tantsu-kodus. 

Sunday, October 6, 2013


Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairytale.

Sunday, September 29, 2013


I have to be alone very often. I’d be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That’s how I refuel."

- Audrey Hepburn

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Trees are filled with memories

Some people just came into my life. And decide to stay. And decide to make my days happier..

Evening in Faaborg. 

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Work hard or work harder

People will love you. People will hate you. And none of it will have anything to do with you.
— Abraham Hicks

You shouldn't settle for less than you think you deserve. If you think you can do it, then you can. If you think you can't or you are too weak to do it... then you are. 
It's all in your head. 
Suck it up.
Chin up, sunshine. 

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Week in Copenhagen

You know you're in a right place when you feel the urge to smile even when you're alone.

Great people around me. Closer to my goals. Stronger in my head. Amazing experiences. Exciting life. Why do I worry, if there's nothing to worry about.

Note to self: Trust life again. Trust life a little bit more. And trust your decisions. 

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Just dance, dance, dance

Anything that gets your blood racing is probably worth doing.
— Hunter S. Thompson

Monday, September 9, 2013

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Learn to love yourself

And kid, you’ve got to love yourself. You’ve got wake up at four in the morning, brew black coffee, and stare at the birds drowning in the darkness of the dawn. You’ve got to sit next to the man at the train station who’s reading your favorite book and start a conversation. You’ve got to come home after a bad day and burn your skin from a shower. Then you’ve got to wash all your sheets until they smell of lemon detergent you bought for four dollars at the local grocery store. You’ve got to stop taking everything so goddam personally. You are not the moon kissing the black sky. You’ve got to compliment someones crooked brows at an art fair and tell them that their eyes remind you of green swimming pools in mid July. You’ve got to stop letting yourself get upset about things that won’t matter in two years. Sleep in on Saturday mornings and wake yourself up early on Sunday. You’ve got to stop over thinking why he stopped caring about you over six months ago. You’ve got to stop asking everyone for their opinions. Fuck it. Love yourself, kiddo. You’ve got to love yourself.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

First a mother,

forever a best friend.