127 times

You let me in
and then push me away

I let you close
and then push you away

and if the pattern turns our unreliable
then we will always be
pushing
away

first you, then me

never letting us release
into each other arms.

127 points to the sunrise

There was this tension
that you can feel
and might even see
between the sunrise and the sea
between my thoughts and the things I said out loud

but nobody wanted to spill the secrets

and all I could think was
I can't be the only one
experiencing this.

Bye 2019

Year of losses.

and

Year of learning
to
choose my battles.

Year of grief.

and

Year of finally
completely
almost
completely
healing.

Year of me.

127% adoring you

I'm guarding your back

and standing next to you
when you need support

protecting your steps
ahead.

Don't ask why.
It just seems the right thing
to do.