Tuesday, December 31, 2013

No matter how you feel...

Get up. Dress up. Show up. And never give up.
Kõige parem tänaseks on teha nii, et uus aasta saaks võiduka alguse. Seada oma elu korda. Kui elu tundub liiga suur ettevõtmine, siis alustada vähemalt selle korrastamisega pisikestest detailidest. Ja olla tänulik. Imelise aasta lõpetamise puhul. Olenemata, kas tõi see rohkem rõõmu või väljakutseid. Kuid üks on kindel: võida või õpi, kuid kunagi ei kaota. 
Ewert and the Two Dragons concert, Florian's birthday in country house and theatre evening. 

Monday, December 30, 2013

Two days 'til 2014

Soon it's time for the hopeless to start hoping again.  To start your reborn. If reborn is not the quickest  and easiest way at the moment, then at least start taking steps towards it again. To start trusting life. Trusting your thoughts. Trusting your ability to climb. Higher. Farther. Deeper.
To not take "no" for an answer but respect your own inner "no", if you simply feel like your boundaries have been pushed. Also... say yes. Yes to every opportunity that you feel that will make you richer. Richer in many ways. Happier. Wiser. Smarter.
Make a list. Put down on every little thing you want to accomplish now, next year and simply… start doing it. If not the next day - then the exact same moment. Today. Now. 
Create your happiness. And travel. Not only physically. Also mentally. 
Only you know what you want. Trust your guts. 

Wednesday, December 25, 2013


So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More Compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide.

Max Christmas feast with all my family. Breathtaking. Literally. 

Being home and resting your head on your own pillow - feels quite amazing after being so busy not even realising what a beautiful 'thing' this called 'life' is. 

Monday, December 23, 2013

it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Nights are meant for dreaming. Making plans. Maybe doing some of them. Setting goals. 
Days are meant to wander around. Make plans true. And a little bit more. Achieve goals. See everything that night darkness was hiding. And make plans. Make plans for nights. 
Life is meant for living. 

Christmas night with my "sister from another mister," gift exchange and making gingerbreads. 

Lots of sushi and wine and laughter. Perfect christmas night! 

 "La Traviata" in Estonia National Opera house, Vapiano time with Dan, two days of football games and Christmas night with Dan - peanut butter truffles!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

this is my happy place

I have been waiting this for a long time. Finally some time to rest, see my loved ones, have quality time with friends, laugh more, eat more, enjoy even more. 
It feels like everything is the same - yet everything has changed. 
Maybe a bit more mature. Maybe a bit more dedicated. Maybe finally in the right place. 
I am not the only one who has changed. And this time - change is a little wonderful thing. 

Flying back to Tallinn for winter holiday.

Drinks in Old Town, reunions, sushi and gift wrapping. 

Sunday, December 15, 2013


And half of the semester is over. Some of us left. Some of us are still standing strong. And I am smiling through tears, because I have been lucky enough to meet so many amazing people.

Adventures in Odense

Monday, December 9, 2013

No. 2

For the last few days we have been watching a huge amount of Christmas movies. Starting with Home Alone, Elf, Polar Express, The Holiday etc. 
It truly is the most wonderful time of the year - as they sing. And for me it means going home, being with my family and friends and enjoying my precious time in amazing Estonia. Counting days…

Let yourself be alone. Loneliness is not a bad thing. It is healthy and normal. Everyone needs to spend a good portion of their life alone. We learn who we are when we are alone; life is less crowded and more clear when we are alone.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Love the one you hold

And I will be your gold.

People always think that happiness is a faraway thing,” thought Francie, “something complicated and hard to get. Yet, what little things can make it up; a place of shelter when it rains - a cup of strong hot coffee when you’re blue; for a man, a cigarette for contentment; a book to read when you’re alone - just to be with someone you love. Those things make happiness. 
Betty Smith (A Tree Grows In Brooklyn)

Amazing day. Flowers and celebration. Still counting stars. Speechless.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Soon to be home

I'm sitting at the bottom of the mistletoe and waiting for you to come home. 

The christmas spirit is slowly and deeply getting into everybody's hearts.
Quietness in my heart. Clarity in my head. Can't wait to start a new day. Can't wait to go to sleep. Can't wait to visit home. Yet, at the same time, don't want to leave this place ether. 
Don't wish away your days, hoping for better ones ahead. 
Everything just falls into place.
This is what Christmas does to me. 

Monday, December 2, 2013

Gala 2013

One more reminder of how I am blessed to be surrounded by so many beautiful people. 
Here for a semester or two.
Friends for life. 

Getting ready for Gala with my roommate. 

Gala partner and a great evening.

Sisters from Denmark and Estonia.