It's a blur. But it's changing.

Something has shifted, something that has waited for so long to do so. My body is dizzy from all the information, from all the losses and rises. The understanding between what I could do and what I am doing is still in a blur but more or less it's getting its way out of the mist. Repeat to yourself that the transformation towards trust is there, always somehow been there, in your gut, in your eyes, in your hands. 

Something has shifted. And what are you going to do about it? Repeatedly question it?

Just trust. That thing.